Note: I published, removed, published, remove this post because it could easily be miscontrued as being unappreciative of the fact that I have a job, but in all honesty, it’s how I feel, so ultimately I decided to publish. I am grateful I can work and have a job, but at the same time, I need to weigh what’s more important. I don’t have a family to feed, and so I believe I have the luxury of being able to determine what I want to do at this point in my life. In no way do I believe I would pursue the same route had I had people depending on me. I know many have worked hard to just find a job, and so I want to make sure my readers understand, I’m not taking this lightly. It’s just how I feel…
I’m going to do my part. Finish up what I can.
Yes, I feel bad I’m not going “above and beyond” to help out, which I’ve done for my entire career…6 years now. Yes, I feel bad that I’m taking advantage of my employer, sort of. Yes, I feel bad. And I think I’m going to feel that way until everything is said and done. But honestly, I’ve given my employer adequate notice that I just don’t like support. I’ve told them many times, and if my immediate performance is not a “hint,” I don’t know what is. I think I need to find something where I don’t have customers.
I hate watching my coworkers take all these issues so seriously. Some of them getting angry and upset. Some just quietly chugging away working 12-14 hours a day. Heck, I don’t need that. I’ve got lots of things to do with my life other than work.
After I get fired, I’ve decided I’m going to:
- Open up that online business by myself.
- Go back to school part time. I think I’m going to pursue a masters degree in education or business.
- Help my parents out with their business.
That should allow me to still spend time with Brownie. Obviously, income is not a concern at this state. It’s going to be hard seeing my net worth crawl after months of growing pretty rapidly. So that being said, I’m going to do what I can, put on a hard hat, and enjoy the ride. Any thoughts? Am I a complete slacker? I should go to hell? What?