Note:  I published, removed, published, remove this post because it could easily be miscontrued as being unappreciative of the fact that I have a job, but in all honesty, it’s how I feel, so ultimately I decided to publish.  I am grateful I can work and have a job, but at the same time, I need to weigh what’s more important.  I don’t have a family to feed, and so I believe I have the luxury of being able to determine what I want to do at this point in my life.  In no way do I believe I would pursue the same route had I had people depending on me.  I know many have worked hard to just find a job, and so I want to make sure my readers understand, I’m not taking this lightly.  It’s just how I feel… 

I’m going to do my part.  Finish up what I can.

Yes, I feel bad I’m not going “above and beyond” to help out, which I’ve done for my entire career…6 years now.  Yes, I feel bad that I’m taking advantage of my employer, sort of.  Yes, I feel bad.  And I think I’m going to feel that way until everything is said and done.  But honestly, I’ve given my employer adequate notice that I just don’t like support.  I’ve told them many times, and if my immediate performance is not a “hint,” I don’t know what is.  I think I need to find something where I don’t have customers.

I hate watching my coworkers take all these issues so seriously.  Some of them getting angry and upset.  Some just quietly chugging away working 12-14 hours a day.  Heck, I don’t need that.  I’ve got lots of things to do with my life other than work.

After I get fired, I’ve decided I’m going to:

  1. Open up that online business by myself.
  2. Go back to school part time.  I think I’m going to pursue a masters degree in education or business.
  3. Help my parents out with their business.

That should allow me to still spend time with Brownie.  Obviously, income is not a concern at this state.  It’s going to be hard seeing my net worth crawl after months of growing pretty rapidly.  So that being said, I’m going to do what I can, put on a hard hat, and enjoy the ride.  Any thoughts?  Am I a complete slacker?  I should go to hell?  What?